Body Changes

It is has been almost a year since I posted.  Life threw me a curve ball in September and I was rushed into emergency surgery on September 9th.  I am one lucky girl and although, I may never regain all of the feeling in my saddle area, I am thankful every day to be walking and that I regained most of my functions.

My mother was a saint through my healing process!  She had to help me with things she hasn't had to help with since I was a small child.  My dog took on roll of protector and whenever I moved she would get my mom and make sure she came in to check on me.  She loves my dad, but wouldn't let anyone in my room unless my mom was there too.  It was very cute.  I also learned quickly who my true friends were and the people who were willing to put aside their fears and step up to the plate and send me positive vibes, joke about the ridiculous events occuring and let me cry when I needed to.  They all made the situation about me and I didn't have to worry about reassuring them I would be okay.

My surgeon was amazing and the day he discharged me, I was a little sad.

Through this journey I recognized I had been lying to myself about my size.  I always knew I was big, but didn't realize how big I got.  Nobody ever said anything to me and those of you who struggle with weight understand that sometimes when you look in the mirror, you don't see your true reflection staring back at you.

I made the decision to change my lifestyle.  It is a struggle everyday to make the right choices and I don't always do it, but I TRY and forgive myself when I slip.

I started using myfitnesspal.com to track my progress.  I exercise daily even if it is just for 30 mins and I joined the YMCA.

I have lost 30 of the MANY pounds I need to lose.  My goal is to be at 235 by the time I am 41 so I can zipline over the treetops in Costa Rica..........

I have been vocal about my journey because it keeps me honest.  I have now added a weight loss ticker to my blog so you all can follow me on my journey as well.  Slow and steady wins the race (or so I keep trying to remind myself)!

I plan to post a picture of me from last may next to a picture of me now in the same outfit so you can see the difference.  I didn't notice it at first, but the 30lbs definitely shows and I feel better everyday!